learn to let go.
learn to heck care.
learn that everything does not require you to care.
(:
there are some things better to let go.
there are some things better not to hold on.
there are some things meant to make you sad.
so, we should learn and know them, so that we can keep a distance.
mid year is coming in 2 weeks time. how much have i studied? when can i get that momentum? kill me. ok. kill me. becus my eng sucks. ): someone please help me. im going to be dead. soon. stayed in school until arnd 8 (thats crazy! but...) well, so much time spent, yet a few things done. how worse can it get. whatever..
hais. sometimes im just so tired. i wan to live in my own little world. (:
passion. 11:19 PM
well, havent been updating for a long long time.
yesterday is the last official performance for the sec4s and 5s, and yes, i screwed up. hais.. ok, dont talk about it. ahhh. i know im going miss band, my clarinet, my sections and the music!! ): feel so bottled up recently. probably i need to rant it all out.
yesterday was a bad bad day. apart from the screwing up and leaving band.. after the whole thing, supposed to go for dinner, but end up we walked to dont know where. pple just dont care, freakingly dont care. i dont know why and dont you all know that shes in pain, dont YOU know that shes sad. oh well, i had been carrying that heavy for so long and my shoulders hurt. all these add to my anger. so dont mind me being so fustrated. we should take control of our lives, so why did we go with the decision that was made. when we reached mac, all we think of is just to finish up the food and go off. dont tell me bullshit. i wont listen to it anymore..
why pple are trying so hard.
dont give us tht face when u walked past. so are u trying to say its our fault that u din get to play in speech day. in the first place, did u ever atttend band practice faithfully? its so wrong to let u play in the concert that time, we HAVE a choice. dont think that u are so impt, until u dont have a choice but to play. sorry, clarinets wont die without u. dont tell me its a duty and a responsiblilty to play in performance. cus every band prac IS a duty and a responsibilty. are u even responsible enough to attend all band prac? ask urself. so, if u only come to band for the sake of coming, den scram.
ok, finish ranting.
ahhh. i love dmn band! i love dmn bandits. and esp esp esp dmn clarinetists!! =D
passion. 5:45 AM
